jet-lagged maybe

Jet-lag = desynchronosis

I got home sometime around 2 days ago. less than 48 hours I would say. Yesterday was my first full day in Malaysia. It feels slightly awkward coming back home for the third time. This time, I feel more ready. 

ready..for what? 

to conquer my fears and do things that will push myself to the limit simply because I have faith that I will be able to do so..all by Allah's will. and only by His will. know that without Him, I am nothing. 

Coming back home to a brother and sister who's grown up so fast. (I have yet to see my other brother inshaAllah)
coming back home to a pet cat who took some time to remember you again (was so devastated I tell ya but we're best buds again now alhamdulillah)
coming back home and realising your father's asthma is getting pretty bad what with nebulisers and all
coming back home to see your country covered in smog. in haze. all smoke and a funny burnt smell
coming back home to the same old view and yet..it feels different

truly, when embracing Islam, it must be done in totality. in completeness. must be absolutely embraced with no escapism and loop-holes. 

only then can the impossible be possible. only then can the far-away become near and reachable. 
only then..can you dream to go far and wide. 

"Belum tibakah waktunya bagi orang-orang yang beriman, untuk secara khusyuk mengingat Allah dan mematuhi kebenaran yang telah diwahyukan (kepada mereka) dan janganlah mereka (berlaku) seperti orang-orang yang telah menerima Kitab sebelum itu, kemudian mereka melalui masa yang panjang sehingga hati mereka menjadi keras. Dan banyak di antara mereka menjadi orang-orang fasik." 57:16

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Masuklah ke dalam Islam secara keseluruhan, dan janganlah kamu ikuti langkah-langkah Syaitan. Sungguh, ia musuh yang nyata bagimu." 2:208