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There comes a point in life when you start to ponder on your life's worth; from the moment you were born..until, now.

Flashing back through memories, somewhat distorted, somewhat crystal clear, some as vague as can be and some..just too far to grasp. How far have I come? What have I gone through and been doing up till now? Have I made a mark here? Does it matter?

Yes. It. Does.

I probably wouldn't give a damn if I only had to be worried about the remaining years of my life. But the thing is, there'll come a day when I'll be made to look at every single thing I've done. and I don't want to look bad. I don't want to be an ungrateful little midget who's not even worth anything. I want to be worth something. I want His redha and forgiveness and mercy and love. I want to be in Jannah. I want my family to be in there with me. I want to see and be with the people of Jannah. and I want to stay there. forever. so that I can look at Allah swt. forever. so that I can rest and relax and have fun all I want. forever. Dunya will seem so far away. but occasionally memories crop up in conversations. and at that time, there'll only be feelings of absolute gratefulness that you were amongst those whom were saved. saved from the terrible torment that you hear next door. they'll be questioning and pleading, the people there. hoping for a drop of water. to be saved from the torture for even a fraction of a moment. but, you cannot help. it is forbiden. and that's how it'll be like. for as long as eternity lasts. forever.

It matters. what you do now. and tomorrow. The short time living here, it counts for a big deal later. Sometimes we forget. More than always we forget. maybe, we'll keep on forgetting again and again. But then, reminders are always there. to get you back on track. Just, don't turn away and choose to ignore. Be ready with your bekal of taqwa. You never know when you'll be called back to Allah swt.

and indeed I, more than anyone else need this reminder at this moment.

cheer up and put a smile on your face. live life happily and gratefully. lillah. and here's to having no regrets in life. ^_^v

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